2.17.2008

A Goal

I have been out of sorts lately, adrift. My days are filled with the rather mundane tasks of motherhood. Shuttling the kids to and from school, endless piles of laundry and dishes, cooking, wiping up crumbs, picking up toys, sitting in the waiting room at the dance studio. I am bored. I am restless. I pick up a book or a magazine, only to put it down again. I tackle a project around the house, only to stop in the middle, leaving it incomplete. Unfinished. I am treading water, going nowhere. Each day I am simply marking time, just trying to make it through the day without drowning.

This is no way to live a full, rich life. I need goals, things to accomplish. On my calendar is the date May 24th circled in red. It is the date I will run my first 5K. It is a goal, something that I will inch closer and closer to one baby step at a time. We all need goals. Something to set our sight on. Something to keep us moving. Something to give us strength.

11 comments:

kristen said...

Here's what I think: Sometimes we just need to flounder a bit. In a weird way, I think it helps. Because like you seem to have found, the floundering leads to a renewed sense of purpose. So here's to your 5K, and all the wonderful goals to come!!!

Niksmom said...

I agree w/Kristen; I think we have to stew and get a bit uncomfortable before we set a course for ourselves...whether it's short or longer term. One success leads to another goal leads to another success...

Visualize yourself BEYOND the 5k? What do you see? What would you like to see? :-)

Lori at Spinning Yellow said...

I hear ya, sister! I've always been the goal-oriented type myself. While in school and with work the goals are often set for you. With kids it turns into endless days of "just getting by" which is mind and spirit numbing. So, hooray to a new goal and renewed sense of purpose, especially since it is a goal you are choosing for yourself!

I look forward to running with you (although I think you will be quickly running much faster, once you revisit your inner athlete).

Delilah said...

Kristen- You are absolutely right. I don't think I fully realized that until I wrote that post. Blogging has given me the opportunity to learn these lessons.

Niksmom- Hmm... I need to think about that...

Lori- It's the "just getting by" that's so frustrating. And I hope that someday I will be able to keep up with you.

Amy said...

Good for you! I am so impressed. What is your plan to prepare?

kyra said...

congratulations! what a wonderful goal. i, personally, can only successfully complete a sprint to the bathroom at this point, but i shall live vicariously through you.

Delilah said...

Amy- I signed up for a 12-week running class that starts March 11th.

Kyra- That's about all I can manage at this point too!

Marla said...

Awesome! My little sister is running a mini marathon soon. She is quite exctied about it. Very cool!

tulipmom said...

Good luck reaching your goal. I'm sure once you begin the class and start to see progress,you'll find renewed energy to put into other areas as well.

Delilah said...

Marla- Best of luck to your sister!

Tulipmom- That's what I am hoping will happen!

Maddy said...

I'm a great believer in goals too, but only for other people. Around here somebody keeps moving the posts!
Cheers